在一起叫梦, 分开了叫痛, 是不是说 没有做完的梦最痛 ?

Why she says she've given up on me?

I've waited by her side from the day i love her. I know i'm Po Ma, but i just didn't meant to. Do you know how much i want to tell you i really love you and wanted so much to be with you? I'm crazy over you! There isn't a day i stop thinking about you. At every moment, i want you to know how much i love you. Maybe i showed it at a wrong way? At a silly way? At a very Po Ma way? Beacause i felt a little insecure everytime you talk about how other guys have been nice to you. Always after hearing that, i've been asking myself, "Why can't i be that person? Why can't i be the person who can give her the happiness that she wants?"

i really don't want to blow things up. Cause i got a feeling that when she sees this post, our distance will be further and further. I really don't want that to happen. I don't want to see history repeat itself again and again. I don't want to go back to the emo-self again. I want to be with her, smiling everyday. It might sound selfish. But i want her so much; no matter what.

I really love you alot Janice the Elmo.