Went to Double O and Dragonfly yesterday. I really had fun! At the later part of clubbing at Dblo, as the rest of the gang were at the dance floor, i was at the table, too shy to go and dance. So there came this pair of india ladies, looking for their friend. So one of them asked for the empty sit. I offered to them. So she start asking me for my name and why i'm not drink or even dancing.

Not too long, her boyfriend came over. So i offered the other empty sit to that the other friend. Then we started to chat for not long, her friend came. Then at first he was like abit unfriendly, asked me, "Do you know who she is?" I shook my head. Then he said, " Don't worry, she's single." I was like, " You don't have to tell me that actually." Then they went off dancing.

At the ending part before the club close, they came back, asking me to help them take a photo. 2 in fact. Then to my surprise, one of the lady ask me if she could take a picture with me. So i agreed, since it's like no harm.

Then i met up with the rest. All of them say is still early and not high enough. Some suggested to go Dragonfly, so we went. But before that, Janice dared or something like that, asked James aka Xiao Nu to kiss me. WA! Without a second word, he kissed me. FUCKING GIVE ME THE GOOSEBUMP!

While on the way to the car, Janice said to me that Don will be over there. My heart just sank. She said to me that she'll be looking for him just for awhile. The pain just hurts further. Then she asked me this in the car,

" Do you mind me looking for him?"
" No"
" Are you sad that i look for him?"
" No"

When we reached, i just felt so down. She still ask me to wait outside for her, while we ran to find him. When i went it, it was really a super eye-opener! Nice sound system, great interior design too. If it's meant for younger generation, i think it will be a damn fun place to chill!

She came back that time, she was already down. Is all written on her face. I tried to console her.
Then Don came over. I was abit boiled to see him. I was trying to eavesdrop, but i realised that it's very rude, so i just leave them alone. But i look at Jan, she's like all sad.

Then Don walked off. She stood alone by herself. I can sense that she wanted to cry. I just looked at her at a distance to give her the space she needs. Some what, Don ask her to leave with him. But Janice didn't. Don can still tell her to F off! What a jerk! There were a few times that when she's off looking for him, the corner of my eyes caught image of shadow, i looked at that direction, hoping that it was her that i saw, but sadly, no. Till some times, then she appear infront of my eyes, sad and down.

After that, send drunk James home. Heard from Janice that his wife damn firece! Send her home.

Woke up in the morning, we start to joke. She can totally bully me, and is like self entertaine to herself. Went back hime at 2.30pm.

Well, i seen and enjoyed myself. Thanks Janice.

I'm really down now. After hearing what happen to her, i felt useless, guilty, and blur. Useless is cause i can't be there for her. Guilty is because i made her angry for what i said to her that evening. Blur, maybe is just blank.

I really don't know what to do. All i can think of is be strong with her, and not emo over it. Help her in anyway i can. Be there, maybe not in person, for her.




Cause, i just simply love Elmo.

I know that this blog is like dead. Cause i really don't have much to write. I might even put this blog under construction, make it a really totally NO EMO blog, for all different readers to read. Maybe you guys have to wait till i get my new camera.

The Canon EOS 50D!



Till then, i don't think i'll update anything.

Well, maybe i'll just update a little here. I'm moving on well. I'm still alive, but soon, i'll just die. Just sometimes, i don't like my life. So what i'm born with a GOLDEN spoon in my mouth. Money can't buy happiness i'm looking for. So maybe i'm not that LUCKY like what everyone is telling me all this while.