Love is never any better than the lover.

I just have this bad feeling. I don't want to say it out yet. Cause i've sort of been through it and know the answer to it. But i don't want to hurt myself; again. Like i told her before, i don't mind being silly falling in love with her, just like the way it is now.

But recently, that feeling is lost. What happen? I don't want this to happen cause i DO really fall for her. Am i just tired? Or just like what Alina told me, you're just lost? Oh well. Hope for the best!

Anyway, she's going off to Perth soon for a holiday. have fun girl! I'll every single day, without fail, post a short entry how much i miss you! =)

And lastly, i've decided to set a day for us. 1st of September! It will be a day when we know each other for about a year? =) People will be asking why 1st of September. Hmm... To be honest, cause i can't remember that actual date that i first know her. So since September is just around the corner, i'll just simply set that date!

Cheers

Isn't love ageless?

I suddenly have this thought. What will my life without her? I suddenly think of it, i felt scared. I don't know why. OHHHHHH!

I love you Janice! =)

在一起叫梦, 分开了叫痛, 是不是说 没有做完的梦最痛 ?

Why she says she've given up on me?

I've waited by her side from the day i love her. I know i'm Po Ma, but i just didn't meant to. Do you know how much i want to tell you i really love you and wanted so much to be with you? I'm crazy over you! There isn't a day i stop thinking about you. At every moment, i want you to know how much i love you. Maybe i showed it at a wrong way? At a silly way? At a very Po Ma way? Beacause i felt a little insecure everytime you talk about how other guys have been nice to you. Always after hearing that, i've been asking myself, "Why can't i be that person? Why can't i be the person who can give her the happiness that she wants?"

i really don't want to blow things up. Cause i got a feeling that when she sees this post, our distance will be further and further. I really don't want that to happen. I don't want to see history repeat itself again and again. I don't want to go back to the emo-self again. I want to be with her, smiling everyday. It might sound selfish. But i want her so much; no matter what.

I really love you alot Janice the Elmo.

Time check now is like freaking 350am! And i'm still awake! Why is that so? Is there something in my mind that i want to speak up but i can't? If so? Why? cause i scared that if i voice out, i'll hurt someone and might even lose that person?

How i wish i can just tell someone. And i understand what's the meaning of a particular sentence that someone told me off once. The pain that's in that sentence.

Here's a shout out to Alina Ng, my secondary school friend. Well, she didn't did anything special. All she did was she will do her best to talk to me everyday. Ask about how are things going on with me and her. About my daily stuff. I did the same too. I'll also vent my angry to her. (I'm so sorry Alina.) She also wishes us all the best. Well, Alina, if by any chance you saw this post, i also wishes you all the best with you and your man. I seriously hope that you two can be long lasting till you two get married. And i'll be there when you are getting married! Thanks for being there for me when i'm down. And you know i'll be there for you when you're down too!